Oh! This time pls stay...

On the green grass & under clear skies

I wake up with teary eyes

I want to go back in your arms

I want to wake up to see your smile,

With every pasing second,

I die a little more inside…

I close my eyes & lie on my bed

With thoughts of darkness looming ahead;

Kiss me and make my demons go away

Say you also miss me & make me live yet another day;

We never took our vows, doesn’t mean we should bow

You said you love me & we’ll never be apart;

Still many more miles to go till death do us apart,

Make my every wish come true,

Make my every dream come true,

Come back for us and stay

Oh! This time pls stay...

Friends Forever

Across hundreds of faces I saw you smile,
Then I thought I'll always smile;
In the class ,on the swing;
Your support gave me wings


When I was on top you held my hand ;
When water was deep , you held my hand,
You leaned into me ,I gave you my support;
You asked for my life, I gave you without second thought,


Days flew & turned to years,
somehow they tore us apart,
You said I was never there for you,
You showed me all facets of the new you;
You said you always held my hand ,
Stupid silly me took all the blame;


Yes; you held my hand when I wanted to fly,
Yes ; you held my hand when I wanted to swim away,
Yes you held my hand & ripped my heart...
and..
Across hundreds of faces I saw you smile;
Then I knew I'll never smile again....

It takes two to tango

Whenever we leave our friends behind , do call , keep in touch, don't forget me! are the usual parting lines. some confident people say " If hearts are near, distance doesn't matter" and in 10 out of 100 cases we keep in touch for like 2-3 months max, after some missed calls n busy weekends , shit for work life, ever thing fades...We meet new people make new friends and somehow our old friends take a back seat... Some how you are not the one they come to share the daily happenings of their life, Somehow you "wont b able to do anything" Somehow you are not the shoulder to cry on, or the first to get a hug!

I don't know how many of you faced this that you came to know about some of your dear friends from social networking sites,, all of the sudden you realize distance does matter! some how you are not as updated as u were.. when in past your lives were intertwined, now you are not even on the same chapter!!!

In my parallel universe, m still happy, m content and people i wanna b with are with me. They all are smiling, happy and satisfied. We still have our many arguments, we disagree, and sometimes we fight, but at the end of day m with d ones i want to be with al my life.........

I know am very lazy, i don't call my friends often, i really need to take some PR lessons from some of my friends , but in my defense it takes two to tango!

I am Imperfect...

I get angry ,I get upset

Some times I want to regret

I m possessive, I m jealous

It makes me miserable

All this hurting is just unbearable

I shout , I freak out

I wish things were different,

I wish I was equally indifferent

I accept but I still expect

From you I want ,what I gave you

If I hurt you, hurt me back

If I loved you, plz love me back .

I know I never was the gurl you dreamed about

I never was the one you talked about

I tried, but couldn’t succeed.

Unlike poems we never rhyemed,

Perfect I am not ,

But m not sorry for tht…

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life is lonely , when you want someone they are never there... they say communicate wid ur friends about your feelings but other person should also have time to listen. few things i hv learnt in life

1) never open up urself totally to someone , it makes u vulnerable

2) always remember the principles u had wen u were a kid, dont ever compromise on them

3) learn from past mistakes

4) dont care too much about people. "the people u care about most are the ones that hurt you the most"

5) take a hint

6) create a mystery around yourself

7) as long as the relationship is new , its exciting ...as it ages excitement evaporates

8) never tell any one you love them

9) if you decide upon it act upon it

10) the only people you should strive to make happy is your parents

11) always remember : "If you love something set it free, If it comes back it is yours, If it does not it never was

12) dont be afraid to say whatson ur mind

13) dont publish a blog wen u r PMS ing

Grey hair and Glasses

My gift from god ....Grey hair and Glasses... A truly amazing discovery...

One thing about surprise parties at midnight are that thy r not so surprise. It gives chance to birthday girls to dress up in their best night suits, scream a lot, & for guys it’s a chance to take out all d frustration on poor b'day boy. Maximum use of HUL products in hostel is during someone's birthday... thankfully this year I m not in hostel, I am safely tucked in my bed ,all neat and clean with no remains of rotten egg, tomatoes, shoe polish , surf and tooth paste and my heartfelt gratitude to my roomie for being clean and not plastered with cake n HUL products.

I was expecting my ex roomies to show up n surprise me ( real surprise) but they cudnt ,, Pune is not that safe yet ,, some of my friends expected a daru party which I sadly announced it wud not be,,my roommate was super excited but I guess I dampened her mood by sleeping at 8 in the evening and then making faces whenever she mentioned "Birthday party " or "birthday bash".

I have this particular mood swing on my b'day, it’s not the anxiety of having an year extra added to ur age, or the striking of realities of life, its just that may b m more of a practical person, I am not so excited about my b'day as others are, some people might call it my lack of interest, boring attitude , party pooper or sheer anti social behavior.

I don’t care what general public thinks of me but what I want on my b'day is wishes from people to whom I really matter just wait for their phone calls or SMSes . I don't want people to wish me at midnight only, I am happy as long as they truly mean what they are wishing me.

This b'day is special for me coz it’s the last b'day of my student life... I won’t be getting off now onwards to celebrate my b'day. This b'day I wanted to go home, keep my mom dad awake till midnight, wake up Nanu at midnight, have Nuppi n G,  to blow all the candles at once , make a wish get lots of hugs n blessings ( gifts from mom dad Nanu ,and Nuppi G is a MUST)

I fondly remember all the childhood birthday parties thrown by my mau n papa, 2 cakes baked by mom decorated with whipped cream and gems by Nuppi and adolescence b'days when u r old enuff not to hv parties at home , but young enuff to not to throw parties at hotels,,,I remember my mom burning midnight oil to stitch me a new dress to wear to school next day, with matching socks, bow and hair belts the pretty basket of toffees and chocolates that papa use to decorate and Anne Geddes cards from Nuppi. The best birthday for me was when I was in 7th grade , dad wanted to watch this cricket match desperately but he let it go for taking us for an outing, I remember him getting a silk skirt for me at 11 at nite n feeling guilty for not being able to gimme gift during daytime...

I remember a particular b'day of mine when situations were tough and I was not wid my mom dad even when we were in the same city, I find tears in my eyes when remember how my uncle's in laws tried to make it a happy day for me, The particular 8 Nov 04 made me realize not to take blessings of God & ur family for granted...

I know "family” b’days are not possible for me now but I wanted few friends of mine to be with me, when I resolve to face the future with more understanding, maturity n calmness

WHAT I WANT ON THIS BIRTHDAY:

I want Munmun, Md, Rishi bhai, and Niti , Puneet ,Shaily ,Sandy...

I want to hug them tight n pray to god that we all be together as long as possible...

I want to be a better human being, a good daughter and good friend

I want a good job

I want to start exercising

And last but not the least

I don’t want any more grey hair for at least 7 years!!!!!!!

Happy 24th B’day to me

P.S: I did not want to purposely hurt feelings of any of my friends and I thank all my friends for taking time out of their busy lives n share this day with me

Thanx priya for a wonderful black forest cake, and a celebration that made me happy , thank you for being such a wonderful roomie , when I am not...

Thank you guys :)

Ahh what a nite!

No sooner did i hit the button PUBLISH POST of my first post I heard Priya (my roomie) screaming on top of her lungs n calling me,,, went running to the other room n found a flatmate lying of floor unconscious.The next thing i saw was a broken coffee mug.....

Concentrating back to problem at hand and not letting my imagination get better of me , I saw my flatmate laughing , it took me full five minutes to realize that she was drunk!!!!

It was kinda funny to hear all her gibberish but suddenly things got out of control,,The first panic button was hit wen she told she is unable to breathe , next second all our mobiles started ringing, one good thing was that it was one of her friends calling to check her ' condition'

so with mobile in one hand & flatmate on other we decided to at last call a friend of hers...

Being from mechanical I was supposed to know what to do wen a person is dead drunk, and partly unconscious, but like other things this was one thing that i did not learn in college..anyways being a doctors sister helped n i knew that i should make her drink lots of water and that too with loads of salt in it,,

My sweet flatmate did not want water , she demanded for 7 up, so some how we found a bottle of 7 up , transferred its contents to drain, and filled in the salty water .Once my flatmate tasted "7 up " she demanded that i taste and tell her whether it was real or not , so had 2-3 gulps of salty water, after consuming few drops of 7 up , she needed to get up . It seemed an easy job , since right from my childhood i have seen Bollywood 'hero's' lifting their drunk friends in movies, oh but how i did not know that reality is entirely different!!!

I think i should mention that my friend here is very well built, 'pakki punjaban' so we needed all my strength and Priya's power to lift her up, On top of that we had a constant demand of calling up her imaginary boyfriend asking him to help damsel in distress.. but no knight in shining Armour came to rescue us n it took us almost half an hour to get her up and another 45 mins to persuade her to change and visit doctor.

At times like this i really wish i had a car coz finding auto at 4.30 is not an easy task, somehow we took her to hospital and never in life i was so happy to see a hospital like i was now. When we entered ER, we got her immediately on bed (hospital) an doctors began their work.

I thought that bringing her to hospital was a tough job but it was piece of a cake as compared to what we were to face after that. she was in such pain when the tube was inserted down her nostril to her stomach and then pumping of water to tummy began, after that ordeal that i faced ( she also, but she was almost unconscious so it doesn't count) i almost fell on bed next to hers!!!!

I have not seen a worst sight than this in my 23 yrs of life, all vodka n brandy coming up the tube, and i cud practically see her green crisp notes sucked through a pipe along with her parents tears. This thing was repeated for 4 times and during all this procedure she was fast asleep and i did not even think about catnapping... some how all the 'stuff ' was out and she was kinda brought back from death's mouth, and at 7 in morning it left me wide awake, setting the gears of my mind working.

Through this entire 'nite out' i missed my N73, i wish i cud have recorded all the action so that i cud show her how our 'little fun' affects our parents.

Now she is in ICU for the day, her parents on flight to Pune, me on my bed still feeling guilty for fighting with my mom last nite.....